MY LITTLE PARADISE!!

HIM

2011-07-09T00:11:00.010+08:00

The long awaited article… MY BOYFRIEND

First of all, I am pretty sure I’m not writing this because my boyfriend bugs me to write about him every other time. (OKAY, maybe a tiny weeny bit)

“You write about everyone before but you never write about me...” (Yuen, 2011).

Second of all, I guess it has been awhile since I blogged. Not that anyone reads it. Maybe wifeys and a couple of passersby here and there, most probably would have a little itch to know what’s going on with my life, or my love life to be exact.

IT’S GOSSIP YOU KNOW… Why wouldn’t you read it since you are already on my blog. (that’s the only reason why I think you are reading this, ain’t you?) Smirks :D

Third of all, hmmm, I don’t really have one but it sounds cooler having 3 points to say. Just like in baseball!

“3 STRIKES AND YOU’RE OUT!”

Okay, I’m starting to digress a little too much. Guess it’s the excitement that eats you when you haven’t really blog for a long long long time.

Back to the topic of the day: MY BOYFRIEND

THIS IS ME! OKAY! GO DOWN FURTHER!!!!
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Presenting, MR. DUMB DUMB! XD
A Picture of him looking extraordinary cute!

My boyfriend is…

Cute, adorable, smart, sweet, charismatic, awesome, wonderful, fabulous, fantastic, pleasant, talented, easy-going, humorous, spontaneous, sincere, optimistic, reliable, dependable, determined, trustworthy, thoughtful, confident, attractive, amusing, charming, versatile, faithful, kind, interesting, tolerant, silly

AND

Insanely, incredibly illogically lovable…

and etc…

PS. I do admit I goggled some of the words to describe Him. My vocabulary is vast and plentiful, just that I need a little more help than usual to remember. :D

Okay, gotta stop digressing.

Back to the main point!

I never knew His existence even though we are in the same course and get to see each other on every lecture. BUT HONESTLY, even though we volunteered at the same organization, I really didn’t notice Him until He got COMPLETELY BALD.

And when I first saw Him, I didn’t even think of Him as cute or anything. I just find it weird, having to see bald people in my course.

His first impression to me wasn’t really his face, but His almost bald head.

So if he really have to thank somebody, he should really thank his BALD head.

IT ATTRACTED ATTENTION!

Here, take a look

XD

HEAD SHOT!

Presenting: MR. BALD HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ROUND OF APPLAUSE!)

REMEMBER THE DAYS...

First alone time

I remembered our first alone time was the day we went jogging together. He was working at Tan Tock Seng Hospital then and HE rushed back to meet me to jog at the park near both of our homes. Subsequently, we just met for jogs, dinner or running errands almost every day. (It’s His excuse to see me). I was really excited and was waiting happily when He agreed to go jogging together. We didn’t really know each other yet and I thought it would be awkward. To my surprise, It wasn’t what I thought would be and I really enjoyed listening to Him talking about all everything. Time was passing too fast and we walked for a really far distance.

I still remembered the blue shirt and white Bermudas He wore that day. He gave me a face of embarrassment and was a little blushing when we met (He’s tanned, so I can’t really tell if he is really blushing).

After which, we went to have dinner together. I was hungry but I felt embarrassed having to eat in front of Him so I ordered bread. HAAHAA! It’s the worst bread EVER but it marks the start of our very first getting-to-know each other session!

The days I'll never forget

First hug

I was having a couple of issues that day and was incommunicado the entire day. He was able to contact me a few hours later and wanted to meet me. He asked if He could hug me (I know it’s awkward!) and told me that He was really worried about me. At that time, I sort of knew that he likes me, because the look he gave me, showed that he was really concerned about me.

The memories that I'll always remember

The confession

His confession marks the start of our changing relationship status. When He said all those words, I knew that he’s the one. It was sort of awkward because He confessed to me and I have nowhere to go. But now, when I think back, it’s the sweetest thing that ever happened to me. He cared so much that He bother to tell me everything that’s He’s feeling straight to my face. And no matter what my decision would be, it didn’t matter to him because all he wants, is for me to know that he feels for me.

I'll hold you close to my heart

Baby

Thank you for being there all these time. I remembered telling you that our 6 months milestone would be the most critical part of our relationship. Because it marks the stability, the continuation of what’s between us and our commitment. I know it sounds cheesy, but I’m really glad that we’ve come this far.

I may not be the easiest person to be with because of my temperaments. And I know, sometimes, I take things for granted so much that you have to coax me all the time. I’m sorry that if i ever hurt you and please know that I never meant for it to be bad.

No words is enough to say what I want to express. And only you know,

I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS WILL ALWAYS DO

2011-03-29T13:40:00.003+08:00

A little not so right day

I don't get to choose
Somehow, some things, they are decided.
No matter how i feel,
They aren't my right to choose

Its the first time ever,
I got so close to someone and then losing it all just because i have a new person in my life
Its the first time ever,
that i don't get to decide any part in our friendship
It's the first time ever,
I feel as though I'm invisible
Its the first time ever,
I got push away again and again.

You'll never know how it feels
Thanks for treating me like crap.
I'm just ain't worth it for you to cherish.

It hurts damn bad.
And I'm lost and confused

2011-03-08T15:14:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i'm blogging.
I just felt like and i think it finally comes to this point that i can't contain it anymore

All these while,
you've been sad
and all these while
i've been trying to help you feel better
i guess i failed?
coz the problem
is never about me.
You told me that i am part of the problem, but not the problem

Thanks.
This is just so right.

You always said you're lonely
and that you have no one.
i tried to be there.
but now i realized.
you ain't lonely.
just that what you want,
is more than just me
what you want is everybody else but me

You got me
but you push me away

Honestly
if its in the past,
i would have chased you back
This time i did too
But it doesn't matter if i did.
Coz im not what you wanted

Being lonely is not the problem
Coz you are never lonely.
you have more than just me
but you choose to push us away time after time
again after again.

And then you feel sad
and i have to make you feel better again
its like a repetitive cycle
its always about you.
What about me?

You said you changed
Change
Its a big word
People don't change overnight
People don't change exclusively
People don't change as and when they want to

And if you really do change,
you wouldn't be so awkward
you wouldn't decide to build a defense
you wouldn't be doing things to hurt me behind my back and think that i don't know
you wouldn't disappoint me time after time

You said i hurt you
but you hurt me more
all this time
all the things that you've done to me
they hurt
and i didn't say anything
its always you
you blow things up and hurt me
you always use your words
to show that you are hurt and that i'm the vicious one who continues to hurt you
have you ever thought for me?
you used to be my confidante
used to be the one that should be there for me
used to be the one that i can say anything
but now i know i can't
coz i know what you did
and i've heard enough of your lies
i'm truly, utterly, entirely disappointed

and now
i don't know what i can do or say
you're avoiding me
and i know
i know you're leaving
and despite that i miss the times having fun with you
i'm not gonna do anything
i'm not going to chase you back anymore
i need my time to be neutral
i need my time to put together the discrepancies

Thanks for hurting me again

Speechless...

2010-12-01T01:07:00.005+08:00

I tried,
and it hurts.

Things aren't the same anymore.
Not only me.
I think i know the reason why.
I get affected by what you say.
I get affected by what you do.
I get affected just by your reaction.
And that's me.

I don't know what else i can say,
but when i tried to talk,
you ain't there.
And when i'm there,
you don't see me.

I tried doing things for you,
just that its not appreciated.
I tried honestly,
but whatever preconceived ideas you have before blinded you.

All you see is a changed me.
And all i see is blame and betrayal.

You said you didn't want to be bothered by issues.
I suppressed them
You said you didn't like the way things are
I tried my best to make you feel better
You said i wasn't there
But i was, hoping that you'll see me.
And you didn't

I tried saving the situation,
but you said you needed time.
I tried talking to you,
but you shrug it off.
i tried giving you time,
but you said i didn't try.
all i did was futile.
I was thinking for you.
but are you still there?

Turned out that nothing i do pleases you.
I tried,
but now,
i'll take my last shot
I don't know what will happen
I don't know if you'll like it
I don't know if it still turn out the same

but at least i wanna say "i've tried again"
at least i didn't let myself down
at least you would no longer feel sad for me
at least and i hope that i've been there

and if it didn't turn out well,
it'll be my turn to grasp for air...

but till then
I love you

Random #1

2010-10-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

I was reading through my old post and realized how much I've progressed in blogging.
I mean,
simply look through and you will really get this goosebumps.
I can't believe that I'm so lame in the past.

All it says was "KEKES" and "HEHES" and some retarded han yu pin yin.
There are also many Cute typing styles that even i can't bear to look at it at all!
OMG
I JUDGED MYSELF FOR IT.
I wonder what in the world was i thinking while typing those posts.
hahaha
Plus, one more thing
Everything was clump together
(I'm criticizing myself, i know!)

Honestly, you guys can simply click on my August 2006 post and read and compare it with my April 2009 post.
Its like Heaven and Earth

So from now on,
I'm going to come up with a couple of good posts.
And i already got a couple of good stories.
i've decided to come up with a few fictional character.
But i guess i start off with the story of KLUTZ

Till then, xD

2010-09-29T23:01:00.001+08:00

This is the day where I have decided not to harp about unhappy stuff.
I mean
There's no point to it right?
Things that happened in the past will stay in the past and they shouldn't be interfering our lives
At least no on the long term basis
So,
I've decided to let it go
Not only on words,
but on what happened.

Some may not be resolve
some may end in resentment
But who cares
Its not up to me to decide what happens next
or i can't change any fact that things happened

But,
I can change what I'm feeling
I'll love my friends and many that I'm concern about
and i will always want to feel that way

Beautiful day

2010-09-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

Short post I guess,
Was just feeling so happy.
Today was a beautiful day
Noticed that I used was?
I kinda was happy because I'm finally....
Guess those who care would text me and asked

Anyways, I text some of my friends to tell them how happy I was
But it turned out that it was kinda a wrong move
I text friend A and he was more concern about some other stuff that was relevant to him
But that's him I guess,
I was thinking maybe he's just more concern of himself

So I've decided to text friend B.
And similarly, friend B was also more concern about her own issues.
Which is actually good.
Not that I think one shouldn't look out for oneself or one shouldn't seek me for social support
I'm just thinking that maybe someone would kinda feel happy for me

Eventually, I turned to friend C
Guess what.
Friend C congratulate me
And I was like damn happy
But additionally,
Friend C broke a bad news for me
Which ruined my mood in a way

Human care for themselves.
I know that.
And I'm fully aware of that.
Thanks for those who are my friends.
I truly appreciate that

So my conclusion:
Today Was a beautiful day

But at least I have some warmth from someone I truly loved.
Which is the ones who accompanied me to receive the good news
My only friend that truly shared my joy with me
I guess.
Life is really like that.
You have the good and the bad
Maybe the bad impact more than the good.

I'll just have to focus on what's left then.

2010-09-12T04:41:00.005+08:00

We are like the U shaped magnet. Although it is true that we are always together, the same magnet, there would be 101 excuses why wouldn’t you want to be attracted to me (not literally). Although we share the same ideology (or maybe not, North and South pole), there are always another 101 excuses why things don’t happen the way we want it to be. To you, the 101 excuses are reasons. To me, they are electrifying weapons that makes me lose my ability to attract (again, not literally). I'll be there for you, hopefully always will always do. But I don’t know if there’s one day, I might just give up, because I no longer have the power, the motivation, to fight for what’s left. The excuses have worn me down. Bring me to my knees and telling me that what I want or what I choose to believe will just NEVER happen. It may sound like I am not understanding anymore, but as much as I tried to be, I hope you are for me. I have tried to be there, I am there and I am drained. But it can’t always be me. It can’t be me doing my best, playing my part and you, letting me down time after time. I’m afraid to tell you this and I’m glad that I didn’t, because I know if I did, it will be the time where I’ve decide to give up on us.

I don’t know if you have ever fought for us or just subconsciously take things for granted. I did things for you, tried my very best to ease you through every obstacles I could to make you feel better. But your words hurt me. I can never do better and always a hindrance to you. I stand in the way, and as much as you didn’t mean it, it hurt me.

Hanging out, it's always so fun. And i love the times we shared, the tears we cried, the memories that we've built upon. I love the jokes, your laughter, the times you talked me out, bring me to my feet and everything. You said we were close, maybe that's why you ended up bringing disappointment to me. Maybe that's why it's that we are so close and we ended up hurting. But i guess, it wasn't close. I mean, I've been close, but i don't know about you. Somehow, i guess, if you have ever been close, i wouldn't be a hindrance, rather, i would be someone in line with you, just like the U shaped magnet, in line, connected and linking together. maybe, i haven't been trying hard enough. Or maybe, as much as i want to move forward together, you wouldn't let me.

I’m sorry, I promise to do better, to do the best i can to fight for what's left of us. I will try my best to persist on, to never give up and to believe that you will fight for me too (mutually)

But if it comes to the time that I think I couldn’t, I am truly sorry. I’ll love the way things were in the past, still will love the way things were when future comes but I shall take my leave, away from being that hindrance, away from the excuses for I think it’s time for me to let you venture on your own. And if you ever need me again, I am sorry that I can’t be there to share every of your succeeding experiences, to play my part as the person to be there for you. It’s hard for me to say, and do know that I am hurting inside. Deep down, you know that I want things to go back but I am not denying. Things changed, just that I have yet to accept it will continue to REFUSE to accept it, for now

And till then, I love you

Life

2010-08-26T22:13:00.004+08:00

Hi,
Its been awhile since i've blog.
Not that i'm restarting to blog,
but i guess,
i need an outlet.
An outlet whereby there's only me and nothing else matter.
Just all about me.
You know what,
someday,
i'm going to be all famous.
Maybe a psychiatrist
or perhaps a psychologist?
I don't know?
i guess it will come to the point that i have to make my decision.
But definitely not now.

People always say that you can just back off from something if you don't like it.
Like when i'm all stressed up recently and jeopardizing my health.
Can you imagine?
A splint for my TM Joint pain and Esophagogastroduodenoscopy for stomach.
Big names and i bet none of you ever care to know what is it about.
Unless you really have to go for it right?

A splint
Its something like a mouth guard.
Except that people wear things that look like this during games,
i wear it at night for my entire life.

and

Endoscopy
Its a camera that is put from your throat way down to your stomach
Don't worry
I doesn't hurt a thing
coz you are under anesthesia in process.
My stomach bled.
Sounds serious.
But nothing that bad.
Just that i have to be away from many food.
Food that i like.
whatever
Oh,
now i guess people must have thought i screw up my body or something
YES I DID!
But i don't care.
Not that i think death is an easy option.
How can it be an easy option?
If i say it is,
I'm suicidal or depressed.
And i'm neither.
Just vulnerable and a little emotional
Maybe a little depressed but i think im still coping life like hell, but fine
Other people experience 10x worse in life.
Im just a insignificant being,
Whining about how life sucks and how humans are ugly.
How they bring about disappointment and how i stick around people who bring disappointment and empty promises to me.
I'm not a masochist
I'm not looking to get hurt
i'm just hopeful i guess.
Hoping that people won't bring another blow of disappointment
Hoping that what i have in mind won't just disappear in a blink of eye.
Hoping that people may learnt how to think for you just like you think for them.
I'm Hopeful H-O-P-E-F-U-L
Seriously, i am!

Many people keep telling me the same thing over and over again.
Like "Why don't you eat when you study?", "why are you so stress?", " So things are not well for you huh?".
out of these many things,
i think the thing that i hated most was when someone says:
"Just quit if you think it doesn't suit you? we don't want to see you stress. If you don't think you can make it, just quit"

What a joke huh?
You know the funny thing is,
When people say it,
they don't really mean it.
Not that they will ever say it (coz its like "i don't want you to quit but i have to say it coz you will feel better")
And NO!
I DON'T FEEL BETTER!

I know i don't.
Where will it get me if i quit?
Not even a diploma.
An "O" level at most.
HAHA.

An "O" Level student
Let see what her future options?
1) People don't care if you score good "O" level scores.
They don't care if you score how many As or Bs or Cs.
To them, you are just a failure.
You only have a pathetic, insignificant O Level.
That's cruel.
I know, life is all about results, pragmatic people and more results!
So basically,
at most,
maybe you will get a nice admin job?
maybe some salesgirl at some shops?
Not that i'm saying its not good.
At least,
3 meals are there.
But people do want more right?
I mean,
maybe i want more than that.
I want more than what a salesgirl have
So most likely,
if i am really someone who quit school due to stress,
I'll lead a miserable salesgirl life
I'll scrimp and save on everything to buy myself a new shirt.
And as people know,
I'm DEFINITELY A SHOPAHOLIC.
I can't save money that well.
So by the end of the day,
i think i'll be in deep debts and die miserably.

2) I can set up my own business
Hmm, i think this is a much cooler idea.
You know,
Be your own boss
One man standing tall
No one to top you.
Except that i'm absolutely not good at accountings.
and first of all,
i need my capital.
Hmm,
I think i solve that problem.
I'll borrow!
HA!
But that way i'll still be in debt.
So not a good idea as well.
or maybe i can get from my parents?
Oh WAIT!
Except that my parents has 4 other kids to take care of.
and one whole big extended family to provide.
So if i take their money to start my own business, with no experiences, no business associates,
Most likely,
my success rate will be...
Maybe 1%?
HAHA!
Hope i did the math correctly?

I know.
People who bother reading this post will think im dark and skeptical and ugly and whatever you can think of.
Ha,
maybe i am.
You know,
life changes
everything changes.
From the time that you have 0% of responsibilities to now,
things change.
Just that we don't wanna admit it.

Pain,
always comes along with life.
Its like,
Life comes in a package
As long as there's good,
there will be bad
As long as there's happiness,
there's sadness.
There are absolutely no solutions to pain.
Maybe kindness helps a little.
But,
i think the best answer is that time heals.
It don't actually heal i guess.
Most likely,
it just hurt you so much that you don't really care and just have to get over it.
Because life always bring more of which.
So, you just have to get hit by another wave to see that the previous pain is not that painful anymore.

I guess
That's what life is.
Most probably till now i guess.

My sweet 18th

2010-05-03T22:29:00.004+08:00

To say:

Thank You for those who remembered that it was my 18th birthday..
Thank you those special ones who celebrated with me...
Thank you for the things you wrote, the stuff you made...
I couldn't explain how much i thank you guys..
for that one moment...
My birthday rang a bell to you....

I wished...
I will never have to hug my family and friends
For i wish that they will be in ALL SMILES...
And never be sad so that i shall never be able to hug them...

I wished...
I will find myself...
Explore a different part of me..
And be who i truly want to...

I wished...
When I'm down...
i shall never be alone for everyone i care will be there to be with me...

2010-04-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

Tired
Is the word that can explain how i feel now?

I dunno why
but I'm feeling very skeptical about things today...
Somehow i just feel like people don't really care what you feel or what you think..
like people be nice because they think they have to so that people will like them.
or at times,
they are nice because they need accompany...
They don't really care about you..
They just wanna have fun or entertainment.
but once they found something to do,
they simply ignore you.
Excuses will be always there..
They shut things up- especially your mouth.

If you don't care,
then don't pretend to.
You don't even need to pretend to be concern because you don't really bother.
you just want to have fun..

When you pretend to ask,
You don't make people feel better,
but make them feel as though they are used.

2010-03-06T04:19:00.006+08:00

I haven been blogging because i wanted to wait till i've changed my blogskin..
HAHA...
but decided to blog today because i have so much to think about, explain about and so much to recall about...

When it comes to relationship,
i guess most of you can say it takes 2 hands to clap..
Parties involved in the relationship have to be the cause of the problem (directly or indirectly)

For example,
a couple in a relationship,
A has given alot, gave up alot for the relationship while B has been not committed at all.
Most of you will say that B is a creep or a jerk,
but thinking from another perspective,
A may be at fault as she has never once stood up for herself.

Another example would be in a family.
A child may feel that her mother has been practicing favouritism to her other children
or not giving up as much for her as she did for her other children.
but as you come to think of it,
it may not always be the mother's fault for showing love to her children.
Love may not always be express implicitly.
If you come to notice,
minuet things that the mother have done for the child are also ways of expressing love
though different,
They all express one same thing- LOVE
(it all depends on how you view it...)

Many a time,
one may feel indignant for the things that they have not done but accused of...
and often,
a problem may escalate further due to the indignity that one feels.
Refusing to take a step back,
parties involved will just suffer from the strained relationship.

How do one ever define that how much you did for a person is enough to justify that you love them?
does it have to be shown explicitly?
like buying your loved ones with things that they liked or giving them the liberty to do whatever they want?
or can it be shown implicitly?
like a parent bringing a child home from school when possible so as to save her the hassle of taking the bus?
Though the child may not appreciate this little gestures,
the parent may feel that she or he has done something for the child.

Sometimes,
its not always about giving..
but rather, what you receive..
When things aren't getting your way,
think back and look what you have gained instead of clinging onto the fact that you have not received from a person.
but in reality,
practicality plays a huge part in making things work.
one do have to realized that money does have a part to play and that every material in this world cost.
Refusing to buy something may not because of NOT LOVING...
but rather,
when factors are put into place...
practicality do have a part to play- things do cost...

sometimes, it may our subjective judgment that blind our eyes.
it caused us to think about fairness, think about not receiving enough and think about not getting as much love.
but it all falls back to the same question again...
Is that enough to justify that one loves you?
When you do not receive enough,
does that mean that you are not loved?
But before you could start receiving,
think about it from another perspective...
what have you given for others?
or have you always been self centered to only think about what you should receive?
(2 hands are needed to clap)
by not giving enough,
how can you expect to receive as much?
And for what you have received...
are you content?
or are you wanting more?

The things you give..
does not have to be substantial..
they can always be given through simple gestures..
like listening to one, caring for one or showing concern for one.
AND even if you feel that you have been doing these,
but have you really shown it?
can you tell yourself without any guilty conscientious that you have really gone that far out for them?

Whenever you feel the indignity that you have suffered,
think again..
what have you done which result in the indignity?
Take a step back and think about it in another viewpoint...
for it may be a different new world..

**I know i'm retarded

2010-01-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

Some ppl...
jus seems to piss u off so much...
haishh

lets name this randome DUDE to be H

didnt feel like describing wad he did to me..
but...
wadever he does...
will come back to him 1 fine day
he always insult ppl for being incompetent..
delete our work w/o telling the reasons yy
nn he thinks tat he did so much work
i stayed up late to complete the work coz he did it wrongly..
but nvm..
dun wish to elaborate the full details..

when asked..
"H..do u wan to be the leader instead?"
he said "NO..."
=.=
but he keeps insulting ppl for being incompetent and incapable..
nn when the leader in our grp chose to accept our idea..
he scolds him "incompetent"
so if tat is incompetent in ur dictionary...
maybe ya shld check out wad is rude in ur dictionary too..
apparently..
u dunno how to say things nicely to others...

nn he took away some other ppl's part for the project..
send him a text to ask him to apologise
basic rules of being polite..
but he didnt admit his mistakes...
so cant freaking do anything abt it..

im sick of all the drama...
i jus tot tat there is always somewhere tat i can rant it all out..
but...apparently..
there is not...

wish so much to die...

2010-01-05T20:54:00.002+08:00

been dead for awhile...
kinda lazy to post anything up here...
till i settle with my blogskins nn stuff..
till then...
http://www.ilovetocrunch.tumblr.com/

2009-10-29T01:34:00.002+08:00

CSI:

NICK STOKES..

was watching CSI..
nn there was an episode whereby he was bury in plastic container alive..
the perpetrator was bearing a grudge on CSIs for putting her daughter in jail
so he made his revenge...

Inside the box...
theres a gun, a recorder nn some light sticks...
a installed fan which runs on the same battery with the light
The perpetrator told Nick tat he could either die of asphyxia or he could shoot himself..
he also placed a webcam on it nn put it on live feed
so practically...
his friends can go on net nn watch him suffer like hell in the container nn die...

so poor Nick waited for as long as hell..
he noes tat his frens are going to save him..
nn jus then..
the plastic container couldnt take the weight nn began to crack...
fire ants came flooding into the container...
nn he was sort of eaten alive..
at this point of time..
his friends found his location nn was diggin for him
jus then..
NICK couldnt take it..
nn wanted to shoot himself..
luckily..
his frens found him..
but there was a prob...
there was a bomb beneath the plastic casket...
nn it will detonate it Nick wasnt on it...

i'll stop here..xD

while watching it..
i was thinking whether i would suffer or would jus shoot myself...
then i asked Meihua wad she will do..
she told me tat...
she will suffer coz cannot lose hope in life...
lols..
when i told her theres ants inside..
she said tat i am disgusting BUT she will still suffer...
lols...
if i habb frens as CSI..
i tink i will suffer first...
coz maybe they are looking for me..
after which..
i will kill myself if i really cnt take it...

2009-10-27T17:22:00.008+08:00

I GOT YOGA FOR MY IS MODULE...

SO HAPPY!!

i tot i couldnt get it

Adel nn me came to sch at 7.30am so tat we can get yoga...

FREAKING PPL CAME AT 7

made me panicked!!

lols..

but in the end...

i managed to get it..

we called Sean to bluff him tat we got dance sport nn hip hop..

but i forgot the next min..

nn went to post at facebook tat i got yoga...

but i removed it once i realised it..

BUT...

sean knew abt it nn was damn cunning...

he told everyone tat i took dance sport...

HIS SCHEME:

Sean: Delphinna took yoga, Adel took hip hop...blah blah

Everyone:aiyos...so ke lian..took such a sport...

HE FREAKING KNEW TAT I TOOK YOGA NN TOLD EVERYONE TAT I TOOK DANCE SPORT...
NN I HAB TO EXPLAIN TO PPL TAT I DIDNT TAKE DANCE SPORT!!!

SO SAD...

LIKE LYING TO PPL!!!!!

then after which..

when we decided to tell him the truth...

he nonchantlently told me tat

"yea..i noe..i noe u took yoga...i told everyone on purpose"

=.=

then after tat..

he kept harping on me lying to him for abt 3 days..

making me guilty...

nn my punishment was:

FISH SPA...

WAAA...

though i always wanted to go..

but after tat trip..

i realised tat it was FREAKING TICKLISH!!!

Adel's punishment was no better than me though..

at least my leg became smooth after tat..

so its kinda worth it..

but Adel's punishment was to smell his freaking beanie...

He bought the beanie to cover his rebonded hair...

nn its filled with his perspiration, shampoo nn wadever he use on his hair..

so its kinda a mixture...

nn Adel have to smell it..

Sean stuff the thing into Adel's mouth..

LOL!

SO PPL OUT THERE TAT NOES SEAN NG JUN KIT...

PLEASE THINK TWICE BEFORE LYING TO HIM..

COZ U WILL SUFFER...

2009-10-27T12:28:00.003+08:00

MY CUTE LITTLE BOY!!
hahas..
I'll update asap...

till then..
CHAD MICAEL MURRAY ROX!

2009-10-15T19:37:00.003+08:00

Below will be a very emo piece..
so kinda post some hot guys to turn ya on first...
before ya guys get emo...

MY DEAREST CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY

Its been a long time since i ever blog..

i've been trying to change my blog skin..

but failed though...

anyways...

will try to figure it out soon...

been watching One Tree Hill...

kinda nerve-wrecking in a way...

but somehow it made me understand things in life...

allow me to cherish every moment in life..

knowing that my friends will always be there for me...

the moments i spend with them...

will always be in my heart...

nn deep down...

i noe that...

i wanna be the same for them...

be there for them..

be the one they can always turn to...

ps/

sometimes we do not realise our most significant moment...

nn when we do...

they are way over...

so every now nn then...

we shld remind ourselves...

that every moment together is a treasure...

2009-09-22T03:47:00.005+08:00

(ps. scroll down for vietnam trip..)
ONE TREE HILL

Yo people..
here to blog..
jus felt the need to..after watching ONE TREE HILL..
i completed season 1...
nn i can't explain about the sudden surge of emotions...
i dunno...
everything became complicated...
it kept me thinking about relationships between people

Some basic storyline:
in this dramathere are couple of main characters,
Chad Michael Murray as LUCAS
James Lafferty as NATHAN
Hilarie Burton as PEYTON
and many many others..
which i can't possibly name them all...
anyways..
the storyline was tat Lucas was an illegimate child of Dan(one of the characters)
nn Nathan was the legimate one...
so both weren't in good terms because of Dan's influence.
Dan did not like the presence of Lucas and he did not really admit Lucas' exsistance...
on the contary
for Nathan,
Dan gave all his best for Nathan..
he trained him hard so that he could get a scholarship to college...
he did everything he could as a father to Nathan..
so basically..
both sharing a father..
but of different treatment...
it was a kind of complicated from the start..
nn then Lucas fell in love with Peyton
but he had sex with Peyton's best friend, Brooke
nn so..
he decided to be with Brooke instead..
eventually
he realised Peyton was the one he loved..
nn so sort of cheated behind Brooke's back
Both felt guilty and decided they shld jus be friends for the sake of Brooke..
though Lucas broke up with Brooke..
he did not be with Peyton
after awhile
Brooke found out about the relationship between Lucas and Peyton
she was upset abt e betrayal and decided to seek revenge..

after watching all the plots and the mind games some of the characters are playing..
i became really depressed...
i dunno how to explain..
jus felt really heavy i dunno..
all the betrayal and trust...
its hard to....
i jus dunno how to explain..
though they may not be true..
well dude..its jus a drama
but...
it was really emotional for me..
i have nv liked watching shows that very complicated twist...
this is the first one
nn i can't handle it..
it was too sad..
nn i wanna fast forward it and watch the ending..
hahas..
but there's up till season 7
nn im only at 1..
AMAZING!
hmmm..
i guess part of me like stories with happy endings..
tat yy im emo..
call me naive or anything..
but i believe in happy endings..
though they arent really true in my life..
part of me jus wanna be naive to believe them
nn this ONE TREE HILL show is destroying it..
but in either ways...
im still going to complete the whole story
i can't stop halfway..
coz its still not a happy ending...
nn also..
im kinda afraid..
like these kinda things can happen in real life relationships...
like betrayal and everything..

CIAOS

2009-09-22T00:18:00.028+08:00

ZOO TRIP
went to zoo with Sean nn Clement

Sean

take 1

take 2

Komodo dragon...

im fascinated by it

hahas...

Clement nn Sean

Take 2

Clement

Ugly pic of sean...

but he seems to enjoy it..

Close up...

I told them theres a pelican..

but they tot it was a statue...

=.=
ITS REAL, PEOPLE!!!!!

Flying fox...

They are bats actually..

i tot they were squrriels...

Sean wanna see the AH MENG'S MEMORIAL!!!

but i brought him to AH MENG'S RESTAURANT TWICE...

I was like...

ME:AH MENG'S MEMORIAL...RIGHT IN FRONT...IM A GEOGRAPHY STUDENT KAYY! I NOE HOW TO READ THE MAP

SEAN:(pointing at the place)THIS IS AH MENG RESTAURANT =.=!!!

Haha..

when we eventually found it..

it was jus the statue above...=.=

he was happy that he finally took pic with ah meng...

clement was freaked out by the ants on the statue...

VIETNAM TRIP!!!!!

Went to vietnam with my family nn sean...

met up with my sis

she's on an exchange programme..

hehess

In the airport...

abt 7 plus i guess..

i didnt slp for the entire nite..

coz i went to watch movie until 12 plus..

hahas..

then the plane is at 7..

so was packing my stuff throughout the nite..

i looked haggard...

coz i didnt get to slp on the plane..

i always love food on the flight...

so i forsake my slp to eat..

by the time i was in vietnam..

i was drained...

the bank there..

my mom, my sis, me...
sean say i look very punky wearin sth like tat..

hahas..

close up of the bank

the atm machine nn phone...

they look very traditional...

i like them...

kinda retro...

my dad nn bro...

at the banking area...

sean...

hes pretending to dig his nose..

learn it frm adel i guess..

hahas...

coz tat day i saw nevershoutnever! doing the same hand sign..

omg.

NEVERSHOUTNEVER! is freaking cute..

though i dun like his ears nn hair..

but his song is great!!!!

I LIKE BIG CITY DREAMS LOADS!!!

everyone listenning to the tourguide..

i like this building...

though i dunno wad is it for...

sean nn my bro...

sean...

crazy..

he loves to ZI LIAN

take 2

he took it while i was slping...

grrr..

my bro nn sean...

lalas...

we are in the lobby of our hotel...

lols..

im freaking tired..

nn i slept on the sofa..

sean said tat i was opening my mouth while slping..

grrr...

BUT HE NV WAKE ME UP!!!GRAH!!!

haggard us...

my mom nn dad..

hahas...

at the supermarket...
sean bought chicken essence...

crazy...

my mom nn dad...

take 2

sean..

his slping wear..

so fucgly...

the cables...

i was like..

omg..

they are freakin messy...

but...

vietnam is a poor country...

so its the best that they could do...

the traffic...

i shld habb taken the city one..

its worse..

ALOT WORSER THAN THIS..

take 2

my sis's hostel....

hehes...

ME!!!

my bro....

hehes....

posing in the van...

we were freaking high...

kept singing...

hahas

i didnt specify which day on the above..

coz there were practically nth on day 1 nn day 2...

jus shopping...

DAY 3

my sis nn sean....
we were at MEGONG DELTA!!!

AS A PROUD GEO STUDENT...

i was telling sean abt deltas...

nn he was like..

"chey...i am also geo student..i noe.."

=.=

can't he pretend that he dunno nn let me teach him...?

we were heading to a village...

hahas

look at the waters...

so murky...

the sky....

i like it...

it looks really nice..

on a day like this..

though im freaking hot tat day...

the village...

ppl performing for us...

they sang chinese song...

some chinese oldies...

quite nice...

the young gal in red...

she looked so sad while performing..

sean keep taking pic...

tried to stop him...

waiting for our boat ride....

my mom, dad nn sis on one boat...

my sis nn her fren...

sean...

we went to a shopping centre...

but stupid sean go change 2000000 vietnam dollars to play arcade...

tat was alot...

nn we did not get to shop coz habb to use up the money..

-.-

my bro...

the view frm our hotel...

take 2

us...

the view...

sean

my bro

DAY4

we were at CUCHI tunnel...

this tunnel was built by ppl in vietnam..

it was small nn dark..

kinda escape route for ppl..

linked to mekong delta...

there are traps in between....

so tat the enemies wont be able to get to them....

they played a video for us..

nn sean was slping throughout...

my sis nn me..

hehes...

this hole is built for the vietnamese to escape...

its small...

vietnamese are small built...

tat yy they can fit in..

while the americans are bigger

they cnt get in...

sean tried to fit his leg...

he habb to twist it in order to go in..

hahas

the tunnel...

i went in with sean nn my bro...

my bro gave up in 4m...

he couldnt breathe...

me nn sean went up to 80m...

freaking dark....

i cnt see a thing..

nn sean KICKED SAND INTO MY MOUTH!!!!

the traps....

they made it frm bamboos..

amazing...

sean said tat i wont die..

i can walk thru the traps..

coz i small nn skinny...

shld i be happy or wad??

everyones engrossed..

lols..

the tour guide explaining to us..

lols

sean..

this tank was destroyed by the vietnamese..

BELOW ARE THE TRAPS MADE BY THE VIETNAMESE...

kinda ingenious....

making weapons...

the tunnel...

we can only walk in one single file...

if one person stops..

the rest habb to stop..

inside the tunnelll...

hehes...

conquered the tunnel!!

airport...

the tourguide kept saying tat we were late..

so i couldnt buy my shoes..

in the end...

we were 3 hrs early..

waited in the airport doing nth...
=.=

sean nn my bro

IN SINGAPORE!!!!

F1 is coming i guess...

me nn bro...

me nn my dad...

2009-08-31T02:02:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SEAN NG JUN KIT!!!!

A short story..
hope ya like it

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It was 31st August...
xD
nn dear SEAN was unhappy...

He wanted ppl to AROUSE HIM!!

LOL!!!!

OUT OF THE BLUE...

NN HE SAW A MESSAGE...

"TO THE BIRTHDAY BOY"

a message from MEIHUA

a message from ISABEL

a message from ADEL

a message from GURVIN

a message from EMILY

a message from DELPHINNA

AFTER SEEING IT...

HE WAS SO TOUCHED!

NN HE GAVE A BIG SMILE...

END OF STORY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

HOPE YA LIKE IT!!!

SORRY FOR TAKING SUCH A LONG TIME!!!

HAHAS

2009-08-27T03:26:00.004+08:00

MY problem or A problem....?

HMMMS...
NTH TO DO..
SO CAME POSTING THE PREVIOUS POST..
I SHLD BE SLPING NOW..
i think im suffering frm slp disorder...
nn its going out of hand...
i haven been slping...
nn IM FREAKING FREAKING TIRED!!!
SCREW ME!!!!ARGHHHH!!

DAY 1:
(24th AUG)
studying since 4 pm...
did not slp the entire night..
went straight for exam
feeling half dead....

DAY 2:
(25th AUG)
slept when i came home...
but pathetically 3 hrs nn i woke up...
study the entire night until 5am(26th AUG)

DAY 3:
(26th AUG)
woke up at 6.30am...
slept for pathetically 1 nn half hr...
go for exams...
feel cranky...
actually...
im freaking high after exam...
in mon's car...
feel so dead nn depressed for no reason...
mom says im suffering frm depression...
bough lunch at abt 12 plus...
slept at 1pm in the afternoon...
woke up EVERY HALF NN HR!!!!(no one's at home to disturb me...)
i woke up for no reason...
kept trying to go to bed...
but toss nn turn for abt 3 hr instead...
finally slept at 6pm..(BUT BRO CAME HOME NN ON THE TV DAMN LOUD=.=)
woke up instead for dinner at 6.38pm
didnt get back to slp...
head feeling heavy nn a slight headache...
but...
STILL NOT FALLING ASLP...
went out to get starbucks to curb my heaviness....
got angry by some rude starbucks cashier
drank starbucks..
heaviness in head subside a little...
tried to slp...
but to no avail...
wanna drink some cough med to make myself slp..
but did not do so...
NN IM UP TILL NOW....!!!!

DAY 4:
(27th AUG)
NOW....
im feeling a little heavy again...
tossing nn turn..
but still not getting to slp...
decided to quit trying to get to slp...
nn post some rusty old post.....
my eyes squinting while looking at the monitor..
but still not slping...
omg...
im suffering from insomnia...
SADED!!!!!
i niida wake up at 10am to bring dee dee to the vet...
meeting poly mates to slack after which...
but im still not getting to slp...
im so desperate...
tried drinking milk..
RESULTS:NOT WORKING(at least for me)

number of hrs of slp in 4 days: 4.5 hrs(excluding now)

2009-08-11T09:07:00.006+08:00

ON NDP DAY!
this post supposed to be up long ago..
but i was lazy...
photos aren't fully posted..
COZ DARN BLOGGER DUN ALLOW ME TO POST PIC FOR NO REASON...
=.=

THE BIG GROUP....

preparing for phototaking..

EVERYONE!!!

(frm left...)PRES, FRANK, WEN, LES,LOONG,ME,JJ

ME NN FRANK

ME NN LES...

FRANKY NN WEN TRYING TO BE EXTRA...

WEN NN LES...

FRANKY

LALALAS

LALAS

BLUR PIIC...

XIONG DI JIE MEI!!!

LEARN SMILING WHEN TANKING PIC...

hahas...

leslie always look serious during phtotaking...

ME NN LESLIE NN WEN....

PI LI HOT CHUN!!

MUAHAHHAHA...

trying to jump nn reach it...xD

THE GUYS...

trying to reach the dumb board on the top..

its been awhile since i've seen them doing stupid stuff...

miss it though..xD

ME NN LOONG

ME NN PRES

everyone's hand...

I initiated to put the PINKIE!!

im freaking proud...

HAD A FUN TIME WITH THEM

ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I'M OUT WITH THEM...

KEEP MISSING MEETINGS DUE TO SCHOOL WORK NN STUFF..

HEHES...

HOPE I CAN SPEND MORE TIME WITH THEM...XD

2009-08-06T13:50:00.003+08:00

A SURPRISE FOR FRANKY...

HAHA...

LIKE MY MASTERPIECE..?

I spent time editing instead of doing work...

hehes..HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

MY FRIEND LOVE YOU TOO
NEXT TIME INTRODUCE YOU TO HER..

QUITE PRETTY NEHS...XD

CUTE LIKE ME...

BUT I'M CUTER OF COS...

2009-07-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

UPDATE:
THE FREAKING TOILET IN MALAYSIA...
I FORGOT TO POST THIS HORRENDOUS PIC...

WE GOT DOWN THE BUS FOR TOILET BREAKS IN ONE OF THE PETROL STATIONS...
THE MOMENT I STEP FOOT ON THE TOILET...
I SINNED!!!
ABOUT 6 TO 7 INSECTS WERE KILLED BY MY FOOT....
THE TOILET IS LIKE A LIVE LABORATORY FOR INSECTS...
THERE ARE EARTHWORMS, FLIES, COCKROACHES NN MILLIONS NN MILLONS OF LIGHT BUGS...
I WAS FREAKING DISGUSTED!!!!

LOOK AT ALL THE BROWN SPOTS...
THEY ARE ALL INSECTS...!!!!!!

LOOK AT THIS...
HOW WOULD U EVEN DARE TO GO IN...
NOT TO SAY PEE OR SHIT...
YOU CANT EVEN SIT....
I MEAN..
U CAN..BUT...I WONT!!!!!!
THEY ARE NOT LEAVES!!!
THEY ARE INSECTS...

I WAS TELLING BABY ABOUT SOMEONE SITTING..
NN THE FLIES IN THE TOILET BOWL FLY INTO THEIR ASSHOLE...
LOLS...
BUT...
THIS CAN BE TRUE LORS...

MY GRANDMA NN AUNT SAY JUS GO IN NN FASTER DO UR BUSINESS..
THEY SAY THEY WONT HARM U...
I CANT BRING MYSELF TO GO IN...
I DUN EVEN DARE TO STEP INTO THE TOILET..
IT WAS BABY WHO WENT IN NN TOOK THE PICS...

PS. YOU CAN SEE THE FEMININE SIDE OF BABY IF U BRING HER TO THIS PLACE..
HAHAS...

I WENT TO THE MALE'S TOILET IN THE END...

IT WASNT TAT BAD...

BUT BABY ENDURE FOR 2 HRS TO WAIT FOR THE NEXT TOILET...

2009-07-01T16:03:00.013+08:00

MY REDANG TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the beach...
the blue sea...
the currents are really big
they can really push ya all the way to the shore...

MY MEI!!!!!!

BABY NN DADDY!!!!!!

ME NN WEI JIAN!!!!

Honestly...

the FOOD SUCKS!!!!

LOLS...

baby say she can lose weight if she really stay there forever...

lols

the rice damn hard...

i can even poke with my fork to eat lors...

I NOE I ASK BABY A QNS...
BUT I FORGOT!!!
SAD...

SHE GAVE ME TAT FACE WHEN I ASKED HER THE QNS...

ME NN BABY...

THE RESORT NEXT TO OURS...

LOLS...

WE WENT FOR NIGHT WALKING...

SO TOOK THIS PIC..

SORRY..MY HP DAMN LOUSY...

THE CLIFF...

WE GOING TO LOOK FOR BLUE SAND...

(my cousin say have de...)

but we didnt see any...

she say not the season..

so dun habb..

COUSIN WEI WEI:i bring u guys go see blue sand...tat time i come have...

(after a long time...we cnt find...)

ME:dun habb lehs...

WEI WEI:i tink its the wrong season..tat yy dun habb...

ME:HUH?SAND GOT SEASON ONE MEHS??hahahaha...
(my cousin was quite disappointed she didnt find the blue sand...but nvm..next time we go nn see again bahs..xD)

MY SIS NN BABY!!!

MY MOM, DAD, MEI

TAKE 2

my dad almost fell..

they wanna take pic...

then the light not strong enough..

so i ask him stand on the rock..

nn he almost fell..OPPS!!

SORRY!!

MY COUSIN, WEI KANG's BIRTHDAY!!!
LOOK AT HIM

SO GAY DE!!!

TAKE 2

MY DAD'S FRIEND'S SON...

LOLS..

I TINK HIS NAME IS ROYBEN...LOL

I DUNNO LA..HAHA

HEHES...

HE DUN WANNA TALK TO ME INITIALLY..

THEN I USE MY KILLER POKE!!

THEN HE TALK TO ME...

HAHAHAHAS

MY COUSINS

ROYBEN'S BROTHERS....

MY DAD'S FRIEND'S DAUGHTER...

ATHENA...LOLS...
SHE DUN WANNA TAKE PIC..

SO I TOOK A LONG TIME TO COAX HER...

TAKE 2

THE SEA....

ME NN BABY..

WONDERING YY I LOOK SO HAGGARD?

COZ..

FIRSTLY...

I WOKE AT FREAKIN 5AM TO TAKE THE STUPID BOAT...

SECONDLY...

I HAVE BOAT SICKNESS...

SO...

I CANT STAND UP STRAIGHT...

BABY HELPING ME TO HOLD MY LABBY...

I PROMISE I'LL BRING LABBY TO DO WORK..

BUT I DID NTH..!!!

HAHAHAS

THE SEA VIEW...

TAKE 2

TAKE 3

TAKE 4

ME NN MY COUSIN...

I NOE I LOOKED UGLY...

TAT COZ..

FIRSTLY...

I JUS SURVIVE MY BOAT RIDE...

SECONDLY...

AS I MENTIONED...

I WOKE UP AT 5 AM...

THIRDLY...

I DUN BOTHER ABT MY HAIR NN EVERYTHNG...

COZ IM GONNA SLP ON THE BUS ANYWAY...

ONLY BABY WILL BE LOOKIN...

SO ITS FINE...XD

ME NN MY GRANDMA....

ME NN BABY....

TAKE 2

LOOK HUS THERE...

BABY BECOME THE TOILET AUNTIE!!!

PAY HER NN SHE WILL LET YA IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANYONE NID HELP IN CLEANING TOILET...

CAN CALL HER HORS!!!!

TAKE 2...

FASTER PAY HER FOR MORE TOILET PAPER....

LOOK HOW SHE SIT..

AIYOS...

I SECRETLY TAKE DE...

SHHH!!!

CLOSE UP!!!!

HAHAAHAHA....

ME NN ROYBEN...

LOLS...

HES DAMN CUTE...

I KEEP POKKING HIM...

DAMN FUNNY....

TAKE 2...XD

BABY ON THE BUS...

LOLS...
I MUST LOVE HER MORE..

SHE CARRY MY LABBY LIKE HER BABY LIKE TAT...

ME NN THE BIRTHDAY BOY!!

BABY DUN WAN LET ME TAKE PIC...

TAKE 2

BASICALLY...

FOR THE 3 DAYS...

ALL WE DID WAS...

SNORKERLING...EAT...MORE SNOKERLING..

NN I DUN HABB A WATERPROOF CAM..

SO I CNT TAKE PIC...

BUT BABY DAMN BAD..

SHE DUNNO HOW TO SWIM..

SO WHEN WE SNORKER..

I HABB TO PULL EHR EVERYWARE..

NN THEN..SHE THERE COMPLAINING...

SAY WE NV MOVE FAST..

HELLO AUNTIE..

I PULLING U LEHS..

U STILL NAG..LORS..

I GOT MUSCLE CRAMP AFTER WHICH

HAHAHAHA

THEN WHEN WE SAW A HOLE IN THE SEA...

BABY GOT A SHOCKED...

SHE ASK ME FASTER MOVE AWAY..

IF NOT LTR GOT THING COME OUT FRM THE HOLE...

LOLS...

NN THEN SHE ALSO KEEP TELLING ME ABT GEOGRAPHY STUFF..

SAY SNOKERLING WILL KILL THE CORAL NN STUFF..

LOLS...

2009-06-20T13:05:00.011+08:00

ICE CREAM WORKSHOP!!!!!!!!!

I went for the ice cream workshop cum buffet at

UDDERS IN NOVENA..

THE MATERIALS GIVEN!!!

1 tubberware

1 towel(used to massage the ice cream)

1 spoon

1 ziplock bag (to put the ice cream in

1 cup of milk

chocolate sauce, coconut or vanilla(dpending which one ya wanna make)

salt nn ice...(in chem...we learnt that salt will LOWER the TEMPERATURE OF ICE)AMAZINGLY...

when i add salt to ice...

it became -25 degree celcius....

LYN!!!

this is a voting board...

ppl will reccomend flavours

any flavours ya can think of...

eg. EARL GREY PLUS STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM

then other customers will vote...

the one with the highest vote..

the chef of the shop will try to make the particular ice cream...

THE BOARD...

ya can write anything ya wan

LOOK!!!

the orange one...

LYN, DEPH, DELP WERE HERE!!!!

MY CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM!!!!
IM FREEZING NN MASSAGING IT...

OUT IT GOES!!!

everybody say like shit...

they were like...YY SO UGLY??

lols...

but its nice..!!!

COZ ITS MADE BY THE CUTEST GAL ON THE PLANET!!!!!!

ME TESTING MY ICE CREAM!!!

i look blur..

coz i woke up FREAKING EARLY FOR THE WORKSHOP!!!

I WAS TIRED!!

NN RESTLESS!!!!

SEE!!!

ICE FORM OUTSIDE!!!

SO NEXT TIME...
PAY ATTENTION IN CHEM LESSONS!!!!

SALT WILL LOWER THE TEMP. OF ICE!!!!!!

MY LAVA HOT CHOCOLATE!!!

ITS BUFFET TIME!!!

WHAT YA HABB TO DO...

IS ADD THE CHOCOLATE INTO THE HOT MILK...

DEPENDING ON HOW SWEET YOU WAN IT TO BE...

CRAZY LYN...

SHE GO PUT ALL...

I PUT A LITTLE...

LOOK AT THE COLOUR CHANGE!!!

YAY!!

MY HOT CHOCOLATE!!!

DAMN NICE!!!!

MY WAFFLE!!!

I FORGOT WAD FLAVOURS I ORDERED...

I ONLY RMB EARL GREY ICE CREAM..LOL

AT GARETH'S HSE....

IN THE AFTERNOON BEFORE MY REDANG TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GARETH, ME NN ADEL!!!

ME NN ADEL!!

ME NN GARETH!

ADEL NN SEAN PLAYING THE GUITAR...

GARETH, ADEL NN SEAN...

ME NN SEAN!!!

ADEL NN SEAN...

SEAN TRYING TO PLAY THE GUITAR..

GARETH...

HE TIRED...

ACTUALLY...

I TINK HE SLEEPS ALOT...

BUT I DUNNO YY HES STILL TIRED?!

THEY ZI LIAN!

ADEL NN SEAN...

TAKE 2

TAKE 3

TAKE 4

LOLS...

LOOK AT SEAN'S FACE...

LIKE PANDA!!!

YAY!

THRU GARETH'S BALCONY MIRROR..

THE REFLECTION...

TAKE 2

UPCOMING POST:
REDANG TRIP,
SINGAPORE FLYER TRIP,
SEBAS'S BIRTHDAY

2009-06-04T00:51:00.009+08:00

THE CAMWHORE PPL!!!!

SEAN NN EMILY...

STUPID GARETH...
GO CAMWHORE ON MY COM...
WITH ME BEHIND
NN I FREAKING DIDN'T NOE!!!

XDXD

ME, HONEY, LAOPO..

XDXDME NN DAWNNIE

XD

SEAN, GURVIN, EMILY, ADEL

SEAN, GARETH, ADEL

LOOK WAD THEY DID TO MY COM....

HAHA...STILL DARE TO CAMWHORE IN MY COM?
THIS IS WAD U WILL BECOME....XD

SEAN BEFORE PLASIC SURGERY

HANDSOME SEAN
MY PHOTOSHOPPING SKILLS ARE GETTING BETTER...!!!

2009-05-26T01:52:00.002+08:00

XIONG DI JIE MEI

ME nn BABY

ME nn SWEETIE

ME nn HONEY

ALL MY DARLINGS...

I SIMPLY LOVE THEM!!!

CAME BLOGGING...

i felt really stressed nn pissed..

I MISSED all of them so much...

my laopos...my friends...

everyone in the pic...

i missed them soo much...

coz with them...

i habb nth to fear...

even if the world end...

even if the darkness take over...

even if the whole world is going upside down..

THEY WILL BE THERE...

they will be providing me a listening ear...

forever being there for me...

despite the things i do..

they will stand by me..

they will tink of me..

they will take everyone into consideration...

nv run away in fear of trouble...

with them...

my world seems to rotate the right way...

with all the laughter nn smiles...

i will nv feel so depressed or sad...

they will nv stop me frm saying wad i wanna say...

they will nv criticise me like others did..

they accept me as the way i am..

nn always being very direct...

as in not in the wrong way..

but...letting me noe wad they wan...

being with them...

i can understand everything simply...

i can always be in my confort zone...

not having to restrain...

not having to hide myself....

but...

i dunno yy..

things become so complicated...

the world...

seems to be so far away..

nn so difficult to understand...

everything tat i tot can be known simply...

turn out to be complicated...

nn i habb to be very cautious...

restricting nn refraining myself...

from being who i am...

I HATE THIS!!!

i have to act nn pretend....

to be under disguise so tat ppl wont noe e real me...

nn when they do fnd out slowly..

they give u names...

they make ya feel tat ya not part of this world..

nn when ya question...

they will be so indirect...

they will nv tell ya wad they wan directly...

only to twist nn turn...

to make things so difficult..

tat when i dun get them...

i feel so frustrated nn useless..

nn when i tot i got it..

they will pretend its wrong...

then after which...

they will leave ya no where...

jus like dumping u off in the desert

WAD IN THE WORLD IS ALL THIS...

I DUNNO...

I DUN WAN TO NOE...

can i be jus myself?

or under the stupid disguise?

i dunno...

dun feel like tinking..

jus felt so angry...

so irritated..

so stress abt everything

everything is like a rush...

nn i dunno wad to do..

wondering aimlessly in the dark....